Here we are - the end of March

It's been a busy (and stressful week). Mason got sick with what they think was the rotavirus (we never could confirm it) starting very early Monday morning. Between Derek and I, we didn't get enough sleep for one person, let alone two the whole week. Mason is now on the mend and kept everything down yesterday (Saturday) so we think he's over it. We are getting some very interesting diapers, but at least he's eating.

I went to the OB DR on Thursday since I was already at the hospital. I have been having ocntinuous headaches since last week. Tylenol which is the only thing I am allowed to take does not help, so I called first. All I wanted to know was "Is there something else I Can take?". Their answer was, "Come in." I didn't want to come in, I am thoroughly sick of the hospital. Unfortunately, I had too. The dr I saw diagnosed me with migraines (pregnancy related). My blood pressure was slightly elevated at first as well. It dropped, but this is the second time it's been high. Gee, could that be a problem?! Anyways, all I wanted was something I could take and still work. So she gives me Midrin which cuases DROWSINESS! I almost fell asleep at my desk. Oh yea, brilliant, Doc, now what am I supposed to do? My answer. . . no migraine meds for me, I'll just deal with the headaches, at least then I can function.

Derek is also been visiting the hospital a lot. He tore his ACL and his MCL and it looks like we are heading to surgery, possibly in May. He's not pleased. He also got his grades in from last term. He got an A and a C which he expected. He starts classes again tomorrow. He wants to do better this term, but we will see how it goes. His advisors are suitably impressed that being a father of three with a busy family he maintains such a good GPA (3.344). It is kind of impressive considering how much he doesn't want to be in school.

That's the bulk of our news. Just been busy caring for Mason and trying to make sure the other two don't get left out. Baby Thiem III is fine. Had an ultrasound done on Monday (the last one was a screening for Down's that the doc couldn't read so he wanted it re-done), the baby is fine. I saw a perfect image of a right foot with five cute little toes. THe tech also thought she saw a winky, though it was merely guess and can't be confirmed for another 6 weeks. Derek was thrilled. Can we say Shane COlton Thiem? I am still holding out some hope it was the umbilical cord or something, but after Mason's exhibitionist tendencies, I am afriad the tech saw the truth. I am not unhappy or disappointed, though another little girl would have been lovely. This way Mason will always have a playmate, I hope.

Mom knew what she was talking about - again

She said one time that you never really get over your parents dying. I can see that, becuase you know it hits you at the weirdest times, and I don't think it's becuase I am pregnant and emotional.

I mean, sitting at a stoplight where you had a conversation, or turning around in the grocery store and realizing she's not there, or trying to explain to someone who did not know her what a neat and unusual lady she was. And she was always a lady.

It's hard knowing that she's missing things that she would have been so excited about. Mason is crawling, actual tummy off the ground, not just scooting crawling. He's cruising too. I think he learned to crawl so he could get to the couch and pull himself up so he could cruise.

She's going to miss the last pregnancy and grandbaby, and yo uknow that's got to irk her. She loved getting her hands on the little ones. And she and Mason were buddies. He misses her I think.

In some ways, it hasn't really set in, but at other times, I just want to cry and cry. It's not because she's in pain or anything,I figure she's in heaven with an endless library, a computer with her favorite games, a tv where she doesn't share the remote, her crochetting, and the 4 babies I lost. So she's not lonely or sad. I am though, becuase I am selfish enough that I want her here with me, though not like she was at the end. I want her fighting with Derek and making intelligent conversation. I can't even be mad at God, who can blame him for wanting someone like Mom with him. It doesn't stop me from feeling a wee bit sad and missing her though.

Ranting - A Lot

OK, I know my mouth gets away from me sometimes, but c'mom, libel? Yes, you read me correctly, someone is trying to accuse me of libel! And what's really (really) funny, it's becuase I questioned (he felt) his integrity. Bit sensitive, are we? Perhaps he did do something he's feeling guilty over. Or perhaps, he doesn't like the fact that I control the purse strings and I am not willing to roll over and he's trying to get me fired. And guess what, my boss isn't firing me! But, oh, I am steamed! And I DO control the purse strings, and those strings are now completely closed to him! Never piss off the pregnant woman!

Have I not had enough turmoil inthe past two month without some jerk trying to play me? And he didn't even come to me, he went to my boss. How unprofessional is that? You know, I really would not mind being a stay at home Mom, but I don't have that option right now, so all I want to do is a good job. I have been being disgustingly nice to work with this jerk, knowing what he was about, and this is what I get. And you know what, I can hear them telling me now to just work with him and ignore his BS. THAT'S the PROBLEM - NO ONE calls him on his games and he gets away with it. So now I have to play toadie for this jerk. NOT! They put me in charge of the program, so guess what, I get to run it my way, which means being fair to everyone, and guess what else, I don't HAVE to include this guy anymore! Period. If they force me to, I will call a meeting with him and I will be more than happy to explain that we no longer need his "advice" as a technical advisor, and we will be happy to entertain his project proposals along with everyone else's when we do a call for projects. And guess what, as far as I am concerned, I can be unbiased, but for some reason, I don't think my program will fund ANYTHING of his!

OK, done venting. I have been percolating since Friday over this, so you can only imagine how hot I was then.