Yes, you still have to get up and function ever day. Feed kids, go to work, pay bills, etc. It's not always easy but we are doing it.
I have my first ultrasound this morning to see how far along I am, and make sure there is only one in there. I am just hoping everything is alright. Hey, with my history, I am bound to be a bit nervous, and the first 8 weeks or so of this pregnancy were pretty stressful. I am already showing signs of high blood pressure so I have to be careful.
There was plenty of work waiting for me when I got back. 5 weeks off tends to add up. I will be happy when I am caught up. Or maybe I never will be (sigh).
Derek is going into finals in the next few weeks. He's got a solid A in one class, but expects a Cin the other. He needs to see his advisor also to find out when he gets to graduate (or if he does).
We are doing ok overall. A lot going on as usual.
Monday, February 27, 2006
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Surviving
Thank God for kids. You have to function for their sakes even when you really (really) don't want too. You have to get up, get them up, get them ready for school, feed them, make sure they have everything they need, and all of the other stuff.
But you know, there is a piece of me that is really lonely. I know I have a great husband (most days), three good children, and a fourth (hopefully only one) on the way, but with Mom passing on, their is a part of me that feels incomplete. She was special, really really special, and I miss her. I know I am going to come home from work one day brimming with news, and she won't be there, and it's going to hit me really hard. And you know, I know there's no way to make it easier. I remember Mom saying once that it can hurt just as much 20 years later as the day it happened.
I go back to work the week after next so I woll use this week to clean up the details of Mom's life. It's not fun. The kids will all be in school or daycare so it will be somewhat easier, but it's still not going to be fun. Necesary, but fun.
Oh, and yes, you read right, I am pregnant again. Oops! Looks like the next Thiem should be showing up in September. Yes, we are happy, but the doctor is worried since I have been under a lot of stress, sick with bronchitis, then stomach virus, and I still breastfeed. Other than that, no issues : ) I am trying to make sure I eat and take care of myself, but it's not very easy right now. There are so many details to take care of. And I am always tired.
Derek is doing ok. He really cared about Mom and this has been hard on him. He goes back to school on Tuesday and has dropped one class to make it easier on himself.
We have learned through this a couple of realistic things, aside from the painful soul searching which I am not ready to go into.
1.) Make sure your parents/friends/family have their affairs in order - NOW. Make sure they have liing wills, durable power of attorneys, and wills. It's not a fun conversation, but no matter who they choose to follow their wishes, make sure they have them specifically stated somewhere in a legal way. It makes everyone's life a lot easier and guilt-free.
2.)Make sure you have done the same.
But you know, there is a piece of me that is really lonely. I know I have a great husband (most days), three good children, and a fourth (hopefully only one) on the way, but with Mom passing on, their is a part of me that feels incomplete. She was special, really really special, and I miss her. I know I am going to come home from work one day brimming with news, and she won't be there, and it's going to hit me really hard. And you know, I know there's no way to make it easier. I remember Mom saying once that it can hurt just as much 20 years later as the day it happened.
I go back to work the week after next so I woll use this week to clean up the details of Mom's life. It's not fun. The kids will all be in school or daycare so it will be somewhat easier, but it's still not going to be fun. Necesary, but fun.
Oh, and yes, you read right, I am pregnant again. Oops! Looks like the next Thiem should be showing up in September. Yes, we are happy, but the doctor is worried since I have been under a lot of stress, sick with bronchitis, then stomach virus, and I still breastfeed. Other than that, no issues : ) I am trying to make sure I eat and take care of myself, but it's not very easy right now. There are so many details to take care of. And I am always tired.
Derek is doing ok. He really cared about Mom and this has been hard on him. He goes back to school on Tuesday and has dropped one class to make it easier on himself.
We have learned through this a couple of realistic things, aside from the painful soul searching which I am not ready to go into.
1.) Make sure your parents/friends/family have their affairs in order - NOW. Make sure they have liing wills, durable power of attorneys, and wills. It's not a fun conversation, but no matter who they choose to follow their wishes, make sure they have them specifically stated somewhere in a legal way. It makes everyone's life a lot easier and guilt-free.
2.)Make sure you have done the same.
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